Who/What made you SAD today ?

[Diablosx8]

sweldo, liit e Hahahaha

[ESSERE]

I found myself crying while typing my answers to the email I received from my father’s lawyer regarding their annulment.

I just realized that I grew up having to accept the fact that there’s no such thing as perfect parents. While I was growing up, they were also growing as individuals and as parents, especially since they started their life together at such a young age (Mama was only 20, Papa was 19).

I have to remind myself that everything that happened before was new to them, too.

But maybe it’s really my inner child that’s still hard to heal. That part of me that longed for stability and safety, umiiyak pa rin siya. 

[pacboy]

hmmm. well right now i have an addiction in gambling.. which really makes my financials stressed. i know i have a problem but it is really hard for me to let it go

[duel of fate]

taking care of someone with mental health issues is hard. at least yung mundo nagrarally naa behind those with mental health problems.
pano yung close families nila, their first point of contact sa lahat ng downfall and pain. kelangan ng superman complex. mas bawal panghinaan. di lang kasi sarili madadamay. pati yung walang laban, malulugmok.

[Aya16]

Hhhmmmm im here in cebu and sya naiwan q sa manila thats why i miss him

[Zia23]

Red day stomach ache and sahod

[ESSERE]

Sad realization today.

I just realized na silently ako natanggalan ng work. or should I say, sideline. 

May handler ako na nagbibigay ng clients sa’kin for massage, on-call setup. Madalas may client ako weekly, consistent talaga siya mag-bigay.

 

Pero last week, he confessed na type daw niya ako, humahanap lang daw sya ng tyempo kasi nahihiya siya at sana daw ay may chance.

Honestly, hindi ko siya gusto kaya sinabi ko agad na hindi pa ako interesado sa mga ganung bagay and I only see him as a friend or kuya (since I actually call him kuya). He replied na edi hihintayin daw nya maging interesado ako sa mga ganung bagay. I didn't reply na kasi ayoko talaga.

Since then, bigla na lang akong di nabibigyan ng client. Two weeks na.

I still message him na available ako, minsan pa nga I tell him I badly need it. Oo lang siya ng oo pero wala na talagang binibigay.

Nakakalungkot lang kasi malaking tulong talaga yung mga clients na binibigay niya, pero hindi naman ibig sabihin nun na dapat magkagusto rin ako sa kanya.

I could never like someone who knows the reality of my work, yet chooses to let me stay in this kind of industry. Unless this person could give me ibang opportunity.

I continue my schooling this year, (grade 12) actually nagsstart na mga classmate ko na mag inquire sa mga preferred university nila to secure their slots for entrance exam. Sinasama nila ako kasi nga ubusan daw ng slot yun, pero nagdadalawang isip parin ako kasi baka masaktan lang ako pag makapasa ako tapos hindi ko naman pala kaya dahil nga sa sitwasyon ko sa buhay ngayon. I used to earn a lot before pero lugi na negosyo kaya bumalik ako sa pagthetherapist, as a breadwinner hindi kakayanin kung papasok ako sa mga minimum wage kind of work. Unless i give up ko nalang talaga yung studies ko. Ang sad na parang wala akong choice. 

[ESSERE]

Crashing out of so much frustration this year.

I'm crying while typing this.

My business suddenly declined this year, until I finally decided to close it last month.
All my plans… I ended up letting them go one by one.

I’m still paying for my condo and parking, and I even requested the developer to just combine everything and give me a resale/older unit that fits my total. I got one, yes — but ang daming kailangan ayusin, so I still can’t use it until now.

Same thing with the other unit I bought this year. It was supposed to be my place so I could stop renting. Pero ngayon, I can’t even move in because my budget for renovation is too tight.

On top of that, my lolo is in the hospital and the bill has reached 200k+.
No income coming in — everything is just expenses. And all I can do is cry.

I didn’t expect life to humble me this hard.

I even reached a point na naisip kong makipag-date from Reddit just to get free breakfast or dinner. Then kapag niyaya mag-check in, magdadahilan na lang ako. Ang patay-gutom pakinggan, but that’s how low and desperate things have felt lately.

Sometimes I just end up crying about everything that’s happening. Life has been… heavy. And right now, it feels like I’m just trying to survive each day.

[napoleon_dynamite]

in hbm context, im sad because im waiting on this "walk" for the longest time na parang hindi na nga mangyayari. kakalungkot lang kasi "nag-invest" na ako just to get her to say yes pero mauuwi lang din sa wala.